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Purple cat Memories...

Two things...

First, why is it that you never see the true beauty and wonder around you until you are leaving it? I'm going to miss so many people here and that is what I've been thinking about the most but then tonight as I was driving home from a shoot I realized that I'm going to miss so much more as I watched the sunset over the snowcapped mountains and the full moon rise above them. So pretty.

And second, for your reading pleasure, a conversation with Cole.

Cole: ( Patting my face)  "Mommy!"

Me: Yes?

Cole:  "You are as soft as a...a...a purple cat"

Cole: (wanders away)

Me: ( smiling for the rest of the afternoon)

I'm not exactly sure what it means to be as soft as a purple cat but I'm pretty sure it's a good thing if it lives in Cole's imagination.

Good things...

So even though it's been a tough time around here there has been a lot of fun things too.  Here are just s few things in the last few weeks that I have found and loved, or done and loved, or listened to and loved.

1.  Hello, Ingrid Michaelson and Joshua Radin concert, could anything be better?  Ummmm yes, throw in Alexa Wilkinson who was their opener and a few good friends (Sarah, Chloe, Emily and Heidi) and you've got the best concert ever. There is something about Ingrid Michaelson that makes me want to yell into the streets for everyone to go and buy her c.d.  Especially all those people who say they are fans but really only know her from the Old Navy commercial. There is much more to her than sweater commercials.  Seriously.  Go to itunes and listen.  She is amazing and so nice. 

  We stayed after because Sarah and Chloe happened to snag set lists from Joshua so they wanted to get them signed. And I got to talk to Ingrid for a second and she is moving to Brooklyn!  Yay. Okay, so I know it's a big place but it makes me feel good that someone I admire wants to live there instead of the traditional, WHY? Why would you live there?  I get from all of my friends in Manhattan.

Go listen to her music and Alexa's and Joshua's too for that matter.  Okay, I'm going to stop talking about it before I become a super geeky fan instead of a super cool fan.

2. Mento's + diet soda=two amazingly excited little boys and one happy Grandpa.

I bought this little science experiment for the boys from a book fair a while ago and I've been waiting for the perfect boring day to bring it out.  That boring day came a few weeks ago.  My Dad bought the soda and well I'll let the picture explain the rest.

Exciting isn't it?  Well, they thought so anyway.  For the two seconds it lasted. lol.

3.  I found these shoes:

Love at last I've found thee and in the form of a yellow shoe no less. Aren't they pretty?

4. My mom got me this lotion from bath and body works and I love the smell of it:

Midnight Pomegranate

5.  My Dad is a great Dad, every Valentines Day my Dad goes to the store and picks out a card for each of us that he thinks we'd like.  Then he writes us a message about that year and all the reason's why he loves us.  He does it for all of us and he has since I was in like 4th grade, and I know that it started then because I've kept every card. Every one. I remember thinking that the first card he gave me was the most wonderful card in the world.  It was a photograph of a teddy bear in a stripped prison uniform behind bars and it said you've stolen my heart on the front. Hey, it was the eighties and I was 9 years old.  What can I say? The fact that I remember it pretty much tells it all on it's own I think.

Here is my card from this year...lest you have doubts in his card choosing.  I love this one as I have loved them all!

6. And last but not least, Did I mention that I get to see this boy in 11 days!  Nothing...nothing could make me happier than that.

 

Well it's been a long time...

Truthfully, I probably could have gone a lot longer but I've started to get those where are you?  Are you dead? emails and as a final straw my husband even  commented on my lack of blogging and if your husband notices your blog is empty than you know it's time to post!

  I actually stopped blogging because I was sick of hearing myself complain here.  I mean really who want's to come to a daily blog and hear a diatribe of whining. Not me.  Not even about myself. So it was time for me to take a break.  Have you ever at some point in your life felt like you stepped into darkness and couldn't find your way out?  Because that's where I was at about three weeks ago. In a cave of darkness of my own creation.  And for I while I found myself just sitting there, so hopeless I didn't even feel like getting up and trying to get out. But eventually as it always does I found myself looking up, looking for glimmer of light to guide me. Stretching my arms out in front of me waving them around so I didn't run into anything until at last I saw of beam of light, it started as a small ray from above and grew until I could finally see again.

  Do I sound dramatic?  Probably, Hi, I'm Candice, and I tend to over thinking things and write dramatically about them.  But you've been reading this blog for a while and you already know that right?  I like to think of it as part of my charm.

Anyway, I'm doing so much better now, and really it was never that bad I just felt so stuck and like things would never change. After ten months of being apart from my husband life just wasn't that fun anymore. It's difficult to be away from one that you love for so long. We were having a really hard time finding an apartment and work wasn't headed the way that I wanted it to, and Cole was having a difficult phase and, and, and...you know how it is.  One thing leads to another and it is so easy to feel sorry for oneself. But after much prayer and fasting and many, many supportive people in our lives we finally found an apartment!  Which means as of the day after Easter we will officially be living in Brooklyn and officially a family again.  Which seriously brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it.  We've all missed each other so much! So although I am completely terrified of moving to NYC. ( I mean come on I grew up on the North Shore of Oahu.  We didn't even have a stop light. And the attitude is soooooo not big city) I'll be so very happy to be with my husband again.

  Well that is all for now.  I'm going to try and get some things done today and I'll be back later to talk about all the GOOD things that have happened in the last few weeks. Light bringing things. Thanks for bearing with me!

Candice